nope, im not done studying yet.
and yepp, i know i shouldn't be posting.
but there's something i just need to get off my chest.

i know that there are ppl around me who loves me.
and there were times where i was unappreciative, over reacting, demanding, selfish, ungrateful, and everything else negative towards them.
throughout this period of time,
there were ppl who stood by me, turn against me, make me see, understand, couldn't care less.
at this point, i think i've seen my fair share of ppl.
and i know how i wanna and dont wanna be.

i am sorry for those that i've treated badly in the past,
i hope you'd understand one day.

to you, hey, we do get this kinda ppl in life.
appreciate the ones who still play a part.
for those who don't, mayb you can still reach out a helping hand when they need you.
afterall, you help not because you expect something in return right.?

sidetrack abit, i know i am an open book.
easily predicted and easily manipulated.
on several accounts, i've been betrayed, backstabbed and left to cry.
but all this taught me lessons and experiences that others may not have.
and now, although im still not that clever in discerning,
i choose to believe that God will give me the wisdom to discern as i grow.

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You hold my every moment
You calm my raging sea
You walk with me through fire
and heal all my diesease

i trust in You
i trust in You

i believe You're my healer
i believe You're all i need
i believe You're my portion
i believe You're more than enough for me
Jesus, You're all i need

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can;and wisdom to know the difference.

After thinking through so much,
i realised that through it all, God has been with me.
be it whatever disobedience in the past, He is with me.
although i made the decision to salvage what i wanted and thought i needed to.
i know i ended up still losing all of it.
but i've learnt that i've gain alot more in process.
i learnt how to let go, to grow, to accept, to understand, to appreciate.
and i want to continue learning.
even though i've lost what i did not want to lose,
i know that i'm more blessed in the process.
God, open my eyes to see and learnt.

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