Tuesday, November 25, 2008 @ 8:52 PM
long post. dont even read if you dont care.
how do i know which mood am i in.?
dont know how i feel.
cannot tell my emotions.
think its going haywire soon.
how am i going to study for MST in this state.?
am i tired, yes.
tired of what, dont know, cant express myself.
it used to be so easy expressing myself.
but now, things aren't so easy anymore.
frustrations, roll in.
problems, they dont roll out.!
solution, God.
working, yes.
but still, its my own barrier.
wrong when it's right
black when it's white
PS: you know wad, shit you. (please ignore that word, HAHA)
PPS: posted at 12.30am
ive thought it through.
the thing is, if this is what it's gonna take to make me learn.
i pray that i have the heart, soul, mind and power to take it.
the fact is, God will never give me something that i cannot overcome!
stay strong. be strong. mella.
stop focusing on how much you've sacrificed.!
look forward to what you can learnt.
true that ppl dont know you intially did this for them.
true that others dont know what you've sacrificed.
true that they dont seem to appreciate you for it.
some might even deem you foolish.?
but then again, who are they to judge.?
if it's not worth it, then leave it.
change for yourself, for God, for your family and for ppl who really care.
ultimately, at the end of the day
what matters is
what God thinks of me and what i've done.
as they read this post,
they may think, what she's saying is just for self-comfort, self-assurance.
but you know what.?
at least i have comfort and assurance in the right source.
so who are you to criticise me and laugh.?
i dont wanna be affected by what is said and done anymore.
you chose your way, i chose mine.
if this is how you wanna behave, dont ever look back and say
"Man, I miss her"
cos you know why.?
you've got your chance.
and that's that.
Labels: credits to deviantart
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