i found something that was missing.
something that i've been pondering about.
after what shan said.
it really makes sense to me.
this is what he said to me with a few added words of my own.

if we don't know how to even love God properly first,
how can He put a partner in our lives for us to love.?

PS: let me rephrase this.
in case anyone starts getting offended.
what i meant was in my personal life.
if i ever really want to have a partner,
i want to make sure that i love him with the best love., the ultimate love.
and this love comes from God.
in other words, i want to be confident,
that i can give the love that is way way better than my own selfish kinda love.
yepp.

what is love.?
i ask this question before.
and i still like what God says about love.
and i want to be what God says about love.

so now, what's my goal in life.?
it is to love God.
heart, mind and soul.

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